I've noticed that I'm bit more morbid than other people around me. I wonder why? My twisted sense of humor smells like sex and violence when it's not tamed by social interaction. One of my favourite songs is Get Psycho by Disturbed. My favourite TV show is Dexter. My interests that I shall not dissect here are in some parts less than legal. NO I don't murder people or smth like that but I know more about psychopathology and psychopaths than many people (don't worry I've analyzed myself, I'm quite an healthy person in that respect) . My supperiors and some equals consider me to be an excelent, intelligent, goodwilling etcetc person. Some who have a more rebellious nature or insight, usually people who are in some way weaker or otherway smarter and more capable than me, see me as an asskisser and a spineless piranha. Who knows. I don't, that's for sure.

I'm actually a really nice guy compared to some with whom I have had to deal with. True sociopaths/psychopaths. Most people won't recognise them for what they are. But to survive in this world you must have an armor compared to 50 layers of kevlar. Literally and figuratively speaking.

Ohh yeah, I didn't answer the question, why am I so morbid. But why shouldn't I be after all I've seen and learned?