Antiestablishmentarianism is a long word. So are bureaucracy and idontgivashititis

Maybe it's because I did not have a rebellious phase in my early teens. Maybe it's because I'm facing big changes sooner than I'd like. I don't know..but at the moment I propose to destroy this civilisation and declare anarchy. To bring back freedom of soul and mind...or just destroy bureaucracy and make our lives easier.

Bureaucrats...I have had to deal with them too much today. Last drop to the bucket was when a friend said that she I might have to pack and carry extra things to the other side of Estonia, even if I might not need them while I could replace them with like...I don't know...a pillow. I could ask but it would hurt bureaucrats feelings or something. At this moment I froze because I wanted to explain how I could not care less about some white-collared assholes feelings. If one is so easily made to feel uncertain or endangered then one should consult a psychiatrist and discover the good sides of Xanax, barbiturates or a bullet to the head. Last especially because when one has become so weak it might be a sign that it has found itself in the dead-end of natural selection and should be but out of ones misery. It might be a sign that our whole society is rotten in some very basic way that has something to do with people relying on papers rather than themselves or the fact that nobody dares to take the responsibility or that people don't spend so much time in the fresh air. I don't know...continuously. Maybe we have gone to far trying to fix what is wrong in our civilisation. Maybe we should start over. Maybe we should bring back the anarchy for a while and see. Maybe whats left will create a newer, a healthier civilisation. Maybe this official who feels so insecure should face a pack of wolves or fight in a battle for his/hers family.

I don't know.

I didn't say these things to my friend. My friend was not guilty in any way and didn't deserve her msn to be overwhelmed with this nonsense nor could I put these thoughts in words at the moment. I don't even believe in anarchy - it just doesn't work. If you don't believe me, I promise I will explain you someday.

I promise, I'll post less rants in the future.

But still...

I have a short fuse lately. I might be part of this disease that I'm ranting about because I will tolerate all this shit and go to university and tolerate some more shit. Until I start to like it and to protect it even if I know I won't be a millionaire or a popstar...

I don't know.

I should know more.